Promise Broken

Yep, so I didn’t update it yesterday. Oh well, no worries. I’ll just have to make up for it in this one. Which I doubt I’ll be able to do, simply because I’m listening to The Mamas & Papas, and they’re quite distracting. I think I’ll just make a list of things that are pissing me off and that are making me happy.

 Pissed Off:

1. Mrs. Patasik moving on while half her class was missing. I can’t catch up. I’m seriously about to give up.
2. Sam snickering when I said how old my boyfriend is. He’s twenty-one, and I’m seventeen. Sure, I’m still “jail bait”, but really what doesage mean? Seems to me like away to categorize people even more so than we already are. Sure, I’ll admit, whoever invented age is brilliant. But still, I won’t mature any more than I am now than when I turn 18. When I’m 25 I’ll obviously be more mature, but that is a while from now. Why is 18 so magical? Screw anyone who thinks four years is a lot.
3. Zoey Hill.
4. Spitzer. Who the hell does he think he is? Why did that idiot not think he’d get caught? Okay, let’s try to fix all corruptness, while I bang some prostitutes.
5. Scabs on my legs from ice skating and the mysterious one….
6. My grandma. I wish she would just chill. I do love her, very much, sorry I don’t call.
7. My PSAT score.
8. I’m tired, have to pee, haven’t replied to Mikeys message, I have a test tomorrow that I haven’t studied for. Calm down. Now to the happy shtuff

Happy:

1. Mike. He makes me so indescribably happy. I think I may be falling in love with him. I don’t realize how much I like him until we’re not together. I get so nervous around him. Maybe I’m confusing the nerves with happy butterflies? Even though I just said age doesn’t matter, it still effects the way I think of it all. He’s a lot more experienced than I am, but isn’t that good? I can learn from him. He’s so brilliant, I could talk to him for days. He’s fun too! He has almost the exact same views I do on practically everything. I get giddy just thinking about it. I keep hearing peoples voices in the back of my head saying “He’s too old Erin, just wait.” I wonder if he is thinking the same thing? But he’s so incredible. I feel like I hold back from him a lot though. I will want to say something to him, but I over think it. However, sometimes I think I’m too up front with him. Either way, I must be doing something right, eh? I can hardly get him off my mind, when I finally do I realize I wasn’t thinking about him, I start doing it again. I’m scared for him to meet my parents though. I don’t know why I am, my parents are pretty kewl folks. I will probably update this section later tonight. Since he’s always on my mind
2. My sister. For the first time in our entire life we are getting along. FINALLY. I can seriously trust her with anything. The most amazing part of it all is she has me number one on her myspace top friends. I remember when she first got it, I was like why am I not on your top friends and she said I don’t know. I didn’t even ask her to do it. AND AND AND, she put me in her heroes section. Here is a quote directly from her about me:
   “But I really don’t know where I’d be without my sister in my life. Shes the one to play the mom role when it’s needed & she keeps me in line. Shes amazing. The way she can make A mistake & learn from it, & know what she did is wrong truly inspires me! But I love more then just family. Life itself is golden. It’s the most magical, tragic, crazy, & breathe taking thing out there. Funny how love is the same way… Love is a HUGE aspect in life & without it you will get no where. “
   That made me cry with joy the first time I read it. She’s so great. I did catch her smoking cigarettes. That should probably go in the pissed part.
3. My family in general.
4. My grade are doing pretty good. Except for math, which is getting old.
5. I’m getting more limber
6. I drink a boat load of water. Could I be a water addict?
7. The fact that I updated this
8. Summer is almost here
9. So is spring break
10. I’m becoming a concert fiend! They are so fun.

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